Jessica Simpson unfolds in Brave New Memoir: ‘I Was Killing Myself with All the Drinking and Pills’

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Five years ago had a deal to compose an inspirational book “to living your best life.” But in her heart, she understood she could not go through with it.

“I didn’t feel comfortable talking about myself in a way that wasn’t honest,” states Simpson,39 “I’m a horrible liar.”.

With the upcoming publication of her effective narrative, Open Book, excerpted in today’s PEOPLE, Simpson exposes for the very first time that she was sexually abused as a girl. The resulting psychological discomfort, along with other stress factors, consisting of profession pressures, led her to self-medicate with alcohol and stimulants– a reliance that would later on trigger her physician to inform her her life was in threat.

“I was killing myself with all the drinking and pills,” she composes.

The star got sober in November 2017 and hasn’t had a beverage considering that. “Giving up the alcohol was easy,” she states.“I was mad at that bottle. At how it allowed me to stay complacent and numb.”

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Therapy, she states, was the difficult part. As she composes,“With work, I allowed myself to feel the traumas I’d been through.”

The abuse started when she was 6 years old, “when I shared a bed with the daughter of a family friend,” she composes.“It would start with tickling my back and then go into things that were extremely uncomfortable.”

Frozen in worry, she fretted it was in some way her fault. “I wanted to tell my parents,” she composes.“I was the victim but somehow I felt in the wrong.”

When she was 12 years old, she told her moms and dads, Tina and Joe Simpson, while they were on an automobile journey.

Her mom slapped her daddy’s arm and chewed out him:“I told you something was happening.”

“Dad kept his eye on the road and said nothing,” Simpson composes.“We never stayed at my parents’ friends house again but we also didn’t talk about what I had said.”

In the years that followed, as she increased to popularity with her huge voice and the truth television program Newlyweds, which recorded her 3-year marital relationship to Nick Lachey, her fans fell in love with the girl who spoke from the heart.

But she buried her stress and anxiety and the discomfort and injury she had actually experienced. Only her closest good friends and household understood the reality.

In 2010, the vocalist who runs a billion dollar clothes line the Collection, discovered her true love in EricJohnson They married in 2014 and now have 3 kids, child Maxwell, 7, child Ace, 6, and baby lady Birdie, 10 months.

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In among the book’s most moving scenes, she blogs about striking rock bottom after a Halloween party at their house in late2017 That’s when she told her closest good friends:“I need to stop. Something’s got to stop. And if it’s the alcohol that’s doing this, and making things worse, then I quit.”

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Her good friends collected around her in a group hug and have not left her side considering that. With the assistance of her moms and dads and aid from a group of medical professionals and two times weekly treatment, she’s been sober because that day and calls her newly found clearness“a continual gift.”

“When I finally said I needed help, it was like I was that little girl that found her calling again in life,” she states.“I found direction and that was to walk straight ahead with no fear.”

“Honesty is hard but it’s the most rewarding thing we have,” she states.“And getting to the other side of fear is beautiful.”

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Along with the audio book she told, Simpson is likewise launching 6 new tunes which inform her story.

She hopes the book (and music) will assist others to understand they are not alone.

“It’s been a long hard deep emotional journey,” she states,“one that I’ve come through the other side with pure happiness and fulfillment and acceptance of myself. I’ve used my pain and turned it into something that can be beautiful and hopefully inspiring to people.”

For more from and an unique excerpt from Open Book, get the newest concern of PEOPLE, on newsstands Friday.

If you or somebody you understand is having a hard time with dependency, please contact the SAMHSA drug abuse helpline at 1-800-662- ASSISTANCE.

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